What you see is what you get

Wenaaaass Hi ya!!

So I’m gonna give you once more something to think about again.

Have you ever bought a toy or something that afterwards did not fit your expectations and you got so angry that you wanted to break it in to pieces and flush it down the toilet cause it is crap?

Ok if you get it hold on for the ride. If not try to follow cause you’ll get it on the way.

I gave this exact example to show that what you see is what you get. A nice looking crap.

Mhm that is what you get when you get when you hang out with people for there looks. And don’t get me wrong I’m not against good looking people. Cause there are “ugly” people inside and out.

When are we gonna learn that we should choose people for the good in there hearts?

But noooh!! Our men and woman keep being this stupid (most of the time). 

You see there apparent beauty and there you go like puppy wagging your tail to that stranger. You did not try to know that person to see if he/she may be dangerous to your sanity or integrity? No!!  And if you did try to know that person you probably wanted to know there body and not there mind. Cause the body is what does the trick. 

Why people why?  

Is the mind/ heart of a person more important?

So if they come out with a surprise you can’t blame them. Cause you have put yourself in that position. Cause before you bought that toy you did not check if it used batteries or if it even works.

So why do we get aggressive later when thing go wrong? 

Ask yourself who’s fault it really is. Yes YOU!! Cause you did not wanted to know what you where getting. So don’t get upset. Learn from you mistakes and move on!!

I know you have to be physically attracted to people you are with. But is that the only important thing? 

No right?

Some people don’t realize that looks change with the time. 

And when what you liked is gone for ever, what are you gonna do? 

Push that person away?

You can’t do that. 

That is not nice or fair for that person or for you maybe. 

Using people is horrible. 

It leaves people feeling empty, used and dirty. 

Would you like something like that for yourself or for someone you love? No right?

So please don’t do that. Learn to know people and select who you put in your life carefully. 

And be sure to love them.

Weight catastrophe (part 2)

Wenaaaass Hi ya!!

This is the second part of my story.

Some time later after that I moved out of my parent’s house for a year and when I came back I was 45 kg again.

Why?

Starvation caused by depression. At school they got really worried cause I was not the same person. So I had to go to a psychologist and she called my mom and told her to forced feed me cause I could be anorexic if I kept on like that. So I had no choice. I had to eat. But she was so sweet to make me the things I liked most. And I had no problem Cause I was stable at home. Still depressed but not as much. So I got till 60kg in 2 years of eating my mama’s delicious food.

Then 2 years later an other catastrophe happens. I was diagnosed with endometriosis. So now I had to take a treatment that would makes 90%of people gain weight. Damn it!! Again!! 

But as nothing breaks me, it only bends me. And I went for it!! 

At that time I was already 63 kg and after 2 treatments in 2 years I was 70kg. I was not sad or anything I had accepted my new faith. No kids but I looked like a mama. Pfff what could be worst? But I still looked sexy so what ever.

But it did not stay till there. I had 2 years no birth control pills so I maintained my weight for the first time till one day I noticed that I would wake up and my cloths that where loose the night before where tight on me. So that was weird!! Then I noticed that my normal cloths would not fit.

Alarm! Alarm! That stupid weight gain is back. Why me? Why?

Ok so I said I need to loose this for good!! Started exercising and drinking herbal eats to loose weight. But nope I went till 90kg. Pfff why me? So I went to the Doc and told him I got 20 kg in 2 moths. To do something or do something. And besides the weight gain I was swollen and stiff for days and some times I would get blue blood spots for no reason. So mega creepy for me. So he did some test and could not find out what was going on. But he kept testing till he found out that my thyroids where working to slow ( hypothyroidism). So I got meds for that and send to a specialist to check it out and do further tests. Ok so I went to this doc and to make long story short she told me I have negative testing rheumatoid arthritis. And that weight that I got I would not loose it very easily. Ok an other thing to deal with. More problems!! 

But as I said I never break I just bend.And here I am saying to the hell with any problem and rocking the curves. 

Still trying to stop thinking that food is my enemy. But I can not eat what ever I want. But now I eat more variety then I did before. I just know now what to combine and when to eat it and how much to eat. And of course accepting my self with this big booty and big boobs. I don’t really cry about my bell anymore cause a corset is a bit of a no no for me cause I have nerves system damage during all that time of the endometriosis pain time and stuff. I still use it but I do not lace myself tight in it. It is just to give some shape to my body when I have to wear something or preparing for a photo shoot. Any other moment I am FREE.

I eat balanced and don’t stress about being skinny and stuff. Now I just take care about everything to look and feel smooth and always looking Cute. But of course you can not totally change, if I gain weight I would be so sad. But loosing it does not really bother me that much as long as I am “healthy”.

I hope my story may be helpful or supportive for other people that may have the same problems. And in my case my problem was not about what people said of looked at me but who I saw and looked at myself. And that is harder to change BUT NEVER IMPOSIBLE!!

So don’t worry be healthy and happy :D