Weight catastrophe (part 2)

Wenaaaass Hi ya!!

This is the second part of my story.

Some time later after that I moved out of my parent’s house for a year and when I came back I was 45 kg again.

Why?

Starvation caused by depression. At school they got really worried cause I was not the same person. So I had to go to a psychologist and she called my mom and told her to forced feed me cause I could be anorexic if I kept on like that. So I had no choice. I had to eat. But she was so sweet to make me the things I liked most. And I had no problem Cause I was stable at home. Still depressed but not as much. So I got till 60kg in 2 years of eating my mama’s delicious food.

Then 2 years later an other catastrophe happens. I was diagnosed with endometriosis. So now I had to take a treatment that would makes 90%of people gain weight. Damn it!! Again!! 

But as nothing breaks me, it only bends me. And I went for it!! 

At that time I was already 63 kg and after 2 treatments in 2 years I was 70kg. I was not sad or anything I had accepted my new faith. No kids but I looked like a mama. Pfff what could be worst? But I still looked sexy so what ever.

But it did not stay till there. I had 2 years no birth control pills so I maintained my weight for the first time till one day I noticed that I would wake up and my cloths that where loose the night before where tight on me. So that was weird!! Then I noticed that my normal cloths would not fit.

Alarm! Alarm! That stupid weight gain is back. Why me? Why?

Ok so I said I need to loose this for good!! Started exercising and drinking herbal eats to loose weight. But nope I went till 90kg. Pfff why me? So I went to the Doc and told him I got 20 kg in 2 moths. To do something or do something. And besides the weight gain I was swollen and stiff for days and some times I would get blue blood spots for no reason. So mega creepy for me. So he did some test and could not find out what was going on. But he kept testing till he found out that my thyroids where working to slow ( hypothyroidism). So I got meds for that and send to a specialist to check it out and do further tests. Ok so I went to this doc and to make long story short she told me I have negative testing rheumatoid arthritis. And that weight that I got I would not loose it very easily. Ok an other thing to deal with. More problems!! 

But as I said I never break I just bend.And here I am saying to the hell with any problem and rocking the curves. 

Still trying to stop thinking that food is my enemy. But I can not eat what ever I want. But now I eat more variety then I did before. I just know now what to combine and when to eat it and how much to eat. And of course accepting my self with this big booty and big boobs. I don’t really cry about my bell anymore cause a corset is a bit of a no no for me cause I have nerves system damage during all that time of the endometriosis pain time and stuff. I still use it but I do not lace myself tight in it. It is just to give some shape to my body when I have to wear something or preparing for a photo shoot. Any other moment I am FREE.

I eat balanced and don’t stress about being skinny and stuff. Now I just take care about everything to look and feel smooth and always looking Cute. But of course you can not totally change, if I gain weight I would be so sad. But loosing it does not really bother me that much as long as I am “healthy”.

I hope my story may be helpful or supportive for other people that may have the same problems. And in my case my problem was not about what people said of looked at me but who I saw and looked at myself. And that is harder to change BUT NEVER IMPOSIBLE!!

So don’t worry be healthy and happy :D